Saturday

I've had a lovely day :) really low key, but lovely all the same. It's so nice to just chill out sometimes, no pressure :) went to Bath and had a wander and a poke around the shops, then for coffee.
For dinner we are doing a fish experiment, hope it goes well!
To top it all off, it's been a beautiful day. Please be coming back summer!!

interview jitters!

I feel the need to have a small bitch about how mean it is to keep a girl waiting...possibly just to tell her you dont want her...
what's the result of today? who knows... yet!
The story time with the kids went well I thought (well, it must have done, I got through!) but as for the interview: it was hard to tell, they made the right noises. But my silly ramblings may have just been a load of old rubbish compared with what the other girls may have said! They said the'd ring at 6:30. It's 8.08.

feelings:
anticipation
nervous
sticky
want a shower. Earlier I was too worried to go to the toilet incase they rang. .. Now I'd quite like a bath. daren't do that either!
It cannot be good to put your body through this!

It certainly isn't nice to think that you're being judged. Summed up on a bunch of silly questions that didn't really reflect me. My 'good' and 'bad' points hashed out by pretty much complete stranges.
I wonder if this is what it's like to be a celebrity ~ but constantly. ?
(not that I think I have any celebrity status in any small way.)

Note to self. Be less judgemental, especially of complete strangers!!

blue

I feel stressed today. The day itself wasn't too bad, altho my english lesson wasn't as good as I'd hoped...hopefully tomorrows will be better, I don't need to worry too much, afterall, it was my first time teaching the class. But it's difficult not to be negative. I've just got the biggest headache and sinking oh-god-i-can't-do-this feeling
*sigh!*
I have to remember that my PE lesson went well & the children were engaged and enjoyed the activity :) phew! It's hard to control them in the big hall!

I think it would help if I felt that my teacher actually cared about me and what I'm doing. I wish she was a bit more interested in her role as mentor, or even pretened that she likes me. It's not that I need to be her best friend...a supportive ally would be enough. I seem to be spending most of the week floating about on my own. maybe it'll be a good thing that she's leaving me with the class on my own all the time? we'll see.. I just have to get super good at time filling, which is a negative area anyway, so surely I can only get better at it?!

Here's to positivity and trying to persuade myself that I can do this job.

positivity and sunshine

I have done the list of things, but as I cross off one thing another two things get added to the list... ahh, such is life!
went and enjoyed the sunshine on the park with Tim and an ice cream which was nice :)
I love the feeling of sunshine on my skin, being able to sit quietly with someone and the grass on my skin (even tho it makes me itchy!)...

I'm beginning to add to a more positive list ~ my "things to look forward to"

so far I have (in no particular order):

*Weekend in Newcastle,
*Weekend in Reading,
*Weekend at Spindlewood
*Half Term
*A visit to Longleat Zoo
*Summer,
&A holiday/roadtrip,
*hopefully successfully getting a job (!)

LOTS!

monday, oneday

Well, I'm back in Keynsham and I've survived the first day back at school! finally unpacked ~ too lazy for words!
I'm just trying to find some motivation to write this silly essay, oh how I wish someone else would write it for me!
Really got nothing sophisticated to say on here, so shouldn't even bother to post this, but what the hell...
for when I check this again, I hope I have:

-sorted out my tax disk (naughty~hope I don't get a massive fine/a criminal record)
-written at least 700words of this essay
-filled out an application letter

as for now: I'm missing the buzziness of Spindlewood somewhat but looking forward for Tim to come through the front door, sipping a cup of tea, contemplating whether to make some food, wishing that I could just snuggle on the sofa and read, regretting the 8 pieces of chocolate I had as I have no time for Davina, secretly berrating myself for being able to write a stream of consciousness load of rubbish but not my essay...
come on Milly, you're rediculous!

Silly billys in the sunshine

sunshine + a picnic in the garden + a walk at camber sands = a lovely afternoon with family!

a spell of sunshine

I have just had the good fortune to be taken to America for a holiday...
I've found that I'm very good at complaining (in this ase about things that happened on the trip)
I wish I wasn't ~ but I think it may be a human reaction to good things hapening to us! But I am grateful and I did have fun!
Anyway, I did lots of 'once in a lifetime' things ~ swam with dolphins, saw lots of crocs up close, went on an air boat, saw a Manitee!
It was so lovely to feel the warmth of the sun on my skin again, that feeling is definitely one of my happy place things :-)
So thank you Potters!
And here's to more travels :)