blue

I feel stressed today. The day itself wasn't too bad, altho my english lesson wasn't as good as I'd hoped...hopefully tomorrows will be better, I don't need to worry too much, afterall, it was my first time teaching the class. But it's difficult not to be negative. I've just got the biggest headache and sinking oh-god-i-can't-do-this feeling
*sigh!*
I have to remember that my PE lesson went well & the children were engaged and enjoyed the activity :) phew! It's hard to control them in the big hall!

I think it would help if I felt that my teacher actually cared about me and what I'm doing. I wish she was a bit more interested in her role as mentor, or even pretened that she likes me. It's not that I need to be her best friend...a supportive ally would be enough. I seem to be spending most of the week floating about on my own. maybe it'll be a good thing that she's leaving me with the class on my own all the time? we'll see.. I just have to get super good at time filling, which is a negative area anyway, so surely I can only get better at it?!

Here's to positivity and trying to persuade myself that I can do this job.